Getting it out of myself--- frustration

It has been long since I have been staying at home due to this pandemic. It started 2nd of week of March until now. At first, it did not bother me so much that I will be staying at home and doing all the work at home. 

I like being at home, I consider myself as an introvert and likes being inside the comfort of home just reading and working. But due to having 2 work responsibilities, 1- managing our family business and 2- teaching at a university, somethings are getting out of hand. 

One, that having a responsibility of managing our family business. Recent changes in the society and down turn of the world economy does affect our business. I needed to think ahead and prepare everything at hand to protect our business, our employees and our family. Balancing everything frustrates me, as to it is not what I learned and prepared myself to. As of the moment, I don't have the right skill set on how to really manage a business. I took Interior Design during college and worked 4 years in a small Interior Design and Furniture company. Though I did learn many helpful things about business in my short stint work in a small company. I still don't know the right fundamentals and proper management skills in business. 

Maybe, this is why it really come down to frustration for me, just like in the book Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell and in the book Flow by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi. There is a part in the book that discusses about getting ahead of yourself in a certain situation wherein you don't have the right skill sets or preparation for the situation--- you'll just end up frustrated. I think this is the peak of it. I need to improve myself more, to get out of this frustration phase to be able to create the desired flow. 

Teaching has been God send for me, it allows me to feel the flow. The optimal experience of doing something that I just like to do, but also sharing my knowledge about my industry to the next generation. It had been a wonderful 2 years of teaching and I feel very excited and happy whenever I meet my students and talk to them personally on how they are doing. Maybe due to this pandemic, this interaction has been lacking in a way that restricts social interaction. Also recently I got another new responsibility to help our college, others might think I'm too young to hold this kind of responsibility. For me, I will try my very best to really do this job well. 

The difference of this responsibility compared with my responsibility for our family business is that I prepared myself for this role. I made sure to study for it and even enrolled myself to another university to get a certificate for professional teaching. 

Maybe at the end of the day, it is my willingness to do something for what I really wanted to do with my life. It is just now, I feel stuck in managing our family business as to there won't be anyone who will be able to manage it on their own. Hoping that God will guide me and my family in properly managing the family business and to not loose myself in all the process.